I need a lot of help(really horrible life.)?

Not much can be done over the internet to help your "problem". You really don't have a problem at all, and it's as simple as that. Things may not be perfect in your life, but nobody has a perfect life, regardless of what you may think. I know some people who would wish they were you from what you've said. Millions of people are worse off than you, yet they continue on happily. Get over your over-active hormones and try thinking of them, and then you'll realize how lucky you really are.